So I just wrote this song and thought I would actually publish it here and see what people think! I hope you like it!  it's a slow/bluesy type song...

i feel so lonely

even with your arms around me

ooh baby

who you trying to fool here

i can tell your heart is elsewhere

so just be honest with me

i can feel it

the lonely setting in

you might as well move on

coz if ive gotta be lonely

id rather be lonely all by myself

dont wrap your arms around me

don't hold me like you used to

coz it dont feel like it used to

you cant look me in the eye

and tell me everything is alright

coz i can feel it

the lonely setting in

you might as well move on

coz if ive gotta be lonely

id rather be lonely all by myself 

so stop lying to me

stop pretending

that everything is alright

and shes not on your mind

im not blind

oooh coz i can feel it

i can feel it

the lonely setting

you might as well move on, move on

coz if ive gotta be lonely

id rather be lonely all by myelf

all by myself

lonely all by self

by myself 

lets go back to the way it was

the days when we were so in love

and everything seemed so easy

when there was no one else

just me and you

when there was nothing we couldn't get through

so take me back

to the time before her

hold me close

how could you adore her

the way you once did me

can't see see what this is doing to me

the news sent an earthquake into my heart

you found someone new

my world was torn apart

over and done

a setting of the sun

to unvail and endless night

so take me back

to the time before her

hold me close

how could you adore her

the way you once did me

can't see see what this is doing to me

 so why dont you just break my heart some more

go on and break my heart some more

because nothing has ever hurt so bad

as watching you walk out the door

take me back

to the time before her

oooh hold me close

how could you adore her

the way you once did me

can't see see what this is doing to me

So after working for AT&T for 4 1/2 months I have decided to call it quits.  I got a job working as the director of marketing and recruiting for a financial firm and I am really excited about it.  I get to help my new boss rebuild his business because he is switching companies.

I went to Vegas this past weekend with some of my girlfriends and had a great time.  But seriously, what is with the lack of hot hot mens in Vegas? All I see is a bunch of cute, skinny girls, and quite frankly it's rude!  I did, however, manage to run into someone I haven't seen in 2 years that I met in Spain who was in the same program as I was, and he is from FL.  He now lives in L.A. though.  How is my life so random?  Who does that happen to?

And the week before, I ran into a guy I had dated 2 years ago and a bar I have never been to that I just so happened to randomly walk into.  Talk about almost having a heart attack! And I actually got the balls to talk to him and he didn't remember me at first! RUDE! Seriously, it's like you called me everyday a couple of times a day for a couple of months and you can't remember me? I don't have a forgettable face!!!!! hah!

 So anyway, that is a quick update on my life. Hope everyone is doing well.

i know you want me

so tell me

how bad it hurts

to see me with him

it tears you up inside

because you aint mine

should'a treated me right

now you're left crying this time

so go ahead

and watch me

i see you watching me

coz im your fantasy

but now im just a dream

 you had me

you lost me

and you can't have me back

i packed all my bags

and left me tears behind

i know it eats you up

to see me with some guy

but at least i have someone to go home to at night

you should'a treated me right

now you're left cryin this time

im sorry wont work this time

coz you'll never be mine

no i don't want you back

so go pack all your bags

and you can say

whatever you want

your words are lies

im done this time

its been 7 years

since you left me

and i dont know how ive survived

its taken 7 years

to hit me

and i don't know why

7 years have come and gone

and ive been numb

its hurts to feel

what i need to feel

its so intense i can hardly stand it

so i fight back the tears

take a deep breath

and tell myself its ok

7 years and it's still harder now

7 years ive been living here without you now

7 years are gone

and im fighting myself on this

i dont want to break down 

if i fall

i don't know if i can get back up

7 years have come and gone

and im still trying to carry on

and i take it day by day

7 years have come and gone

and im still carrying on

ive learned i can't run away

number 8 is coming

but your memory will never fade away

7 years have come and gone

but i have to carry on 

i gotta have you

i gotta have you

i see you watching me

and its so plain to see

that you feel the way i do

oh baby come closer

i need you close to me

cant you feel the music taking over our bodies

and all i want is to have you

i gotta have you

you spin my mind around

my feet dont touch the ground

when your around

i gotta have you

tell me you want me

tell me you feel the way i do

tell me you want me

tell me you need me

tell me everything i want to hear

and all i want is to have you

i gotta have you

you spin my mind around

my feet dont touch the ground

when your around

i gotta have you 

dear friend

i know you're going through a hard time

but i wanted to let you know

i am here

and when it seems like the world is crashing down around you

ill be standing tall

i feel your pain

i know your loss

and i understand when you dont want to talk

but trust in me

and you'll see

life will go on

he's in a better place

beyond time and space

and he is forever smiling now

and watching you grow up

i don't want you to worry

don't go through life in a hurry

it won't heal the hurt

it won't mend the pain,

it'll only push it back for another day

so let it out

scream and shout

lean on me

i'll be there for you 

no matter what you go through